Avery Kate

Avery Kate was a healthy ten week old baby girl who went to sleep for a nap and woke up in Heaven. We miss her every second of every day. SIDS became a reality in our family and we will never forget our beautiful baby girl.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Business or Pleasure?

Our school has been participating in a process called The Leader in Me. There are seven habits of happy kids that we have been teaching our kids and integrating into our curriculum. The past couple of weeks have been really difficult for me being sick and having to be at school every day. I've done it with no problems two times before, but this time is very different and emotional for me. Well as I was teaching the habit 1:Be Proactive to my class I had to stop and think. I'm teaching these kids to be in charge of their own actions, to create their own weather, and choose their own attitudes and moods and what am I doing? It was at that moment that I realized that I too had the choice of how I was going to live each day. Even though I have had a really tough couple of months, it could be a whole lot worse. I knew I had the choice to have a good day or bad day. I choose for every day to be a good day now. One thing I have learned throughout all of this is that our future is not promised to us. We should make the best of each day. Even if I spend that day throwing up and feeling yucky, I know it's up to me to make it a good day. So when my coworkers see me looking my absolute worst, I always have a smile to give them.
A few of our teachers attended the Leader in Me symposium on Friday. We heard the most inspiring speaker, Muriel Summers. She was so fresh, real, and uplifting. I know it was all related to teaching, but to me it was much more. She inspired me to "move past" the hard times and focus on the positive in my life. I know I was put there in that room for a reason. Not only did she open my mind, but she opened my heart as well. I needed that!
On another good note, Hallie has been taking extra good care of her baby dolls lately. Well today when I saw her picking up her baby I asked her if she remembered Avery Kate. She told me no which I knew was not the truth. I asked her if she remembered her crying. She looked at me and said, "Mom, Avery Kate doesn't cry. She just laughs all the time now." I was speechless. I know she has to see her sister and I know she talks to her. I'm a little jealous that she has that ability and I don't. I do love that they still have that bond though. Brandon and I can hear her every night just talking and singing away. It makes my heart smile.