Saturday, February 4, 2012
Mrs. Christy and Jenny rode with Brandon, Hallie, and I to Grant, LA to pick out our Christmas tree from the tree farm. Once again, a once cheerful occassion upset me. I couldn't wait for Avery Kate's first Christmas! I just didn't even feel like celebrating Christmas this year. Did we really have to? Then I remembered the reason for the season. Jesus. God's child that he gave to us. I knew I couldn't steal that joy from Hallie. We picked out THE perfect tree, and drove back to Lake Charles. Once Brandon had the tree up in the house, I wondered how I was going to pull out the decorations and make our home happy. I just put it off and thought I would get to it one day. It felt like the longest day, and the night wasn't any easier. But I thought of what Avery Kate would have wanted on that day.... She would have wanted me to be happy and give thanks. So as I went to sleep that night, I thanked God for the ten weeks I had with her, for my wonderful family and friends, and for the strength he had given me to make it through that day.